Yuck continued

Unbelievable. Three days after treatment and I still feel nauseated. At least I managed to lose the three pounds of water weight I had gained over the weekend from the steriod. This has been an interesting course of treatment in that every time my response has been a little different than the others. I'm going back to the 8 mg of the steriod prior to the infusion starting on Friday, as I've decided that being sleepless is not as bad as being nauseous.

At least I haven't vomited. Vomiting is the absolute last item on my list that I want to deal with. Insomnia, jitters, nausea, moodiness, restlessness, fatigue -- all of those are waaaaaay up the list from throwing up. As Ed will attest, I once had food poisoning and managed to last 36 hours before I allowed myself to throw up despite the fact that I knew I would feel better afterward. In this case, however, I doubt I will feel better, so I will continue to eat my graham crackers and sip my seltzer water and hope to continue to stave it off.

I'm back in the office being useful, which is a change since I definitely wasn't of any use this weekend. How do people who are on the real chemo continue to manage their lives? I can't imagine going back to work on Monday morning if I felt any worse than I do. I have to give people like my friend Lydia's sister-in-law, Charlotte, a lot of kudos. She has breast cancer and is getting the big guns for her treatment, yet she continues to work and take vacations. I'll have to find out how she does it.

Thanks to everyone who checked on me over the weekend either by phone, e-mail or by reading this blog. I feel a bit like I have to suck it up because I don't want to admit to being a complete weenie in front of all of you -- and I'd be forced to admit it if it were true. :) I feel even better about having been so productive during my nine good days. All that work around the house must have helped as my ANCs (which I understand to be a measurement of my immature white blood cells and an indicator of where my WBC count should be prior to my next treatment) were way up on Friday.

Keep your fingers crossed for a nausea-free day tomorrow -- PLEASE!!