Trying to be positive

I'm not feeling any better today and seriously contemplated staying home. However, I'm working from home on Wednesday and am off on Thursday, so I decided to bite the bullet and come in. My stomach is still bothering me and now I'm really kicking myself for not taking the Aloxi or filling the anti-nausea meds the doctor prescribed on Thursday. I hope to be feeling better soon, as we have an annual Christmas Eve party to attend and I would like to be able to partake of all the goodies that our friend Sue makes. And what's a party without a glass of wine? My stomach can't even handle that the past few nights. Right now I'm struggling with a turkey sandwich, but I'm not getting very far. Maybe I'll try some applesauce.

I have to admit that this is not the happy holiday season that I usually enjoy. Between feeling so sick to my stomach, looking at my bald spots, having to wear a hat around the house most days lately because my head is cold, and thinking back to everything that's occurred this year (the port surgery, two types of chemo, radiation), I just feel a lack of my usual joy and positive spirit. I'm sure it's to be expected and I can't possibly be "rah rah" all the time, but it's put a damper on the Christmas season for me thus far. No, I'm not depressed, just not cheery, and this is the time of year when it's appropriate to be cheery. Once the nausea passes, I'm sure I'll feel better about life in general, but today I'm just blah. Forgive me, please...

We didn't get any snow to speak of in the most recent storm. It seems that each time a snowstorm approaches, the temperatures rise in our part of the state and all we get is rain. Okay, maybe a little sleet and/or freezing rain, but mainly rain. Today it's blustery and cold, cold, cold. It was 14 degrees when I arrived in the city this morning, and as of12:30 p.m., it's a balmy 18 degrees outside. Tomorrow the high is supposed to be in the mid-30s, and it's supposed to be rainy and 55 on Wednesday. Is this weird weather or what?

I hope to report back before Thursday that I'm feeling much better. Keep your fingers crossed.