Wow!

First, I'd like to thank everyone who contacted me since yesterday afternoon about the brain mets. Your concern and love just amaze me and I am so grateful to have you all in my life.

Second, you people need to get busy with other things. You're obviously spending way too much time monitoring this blog if you read my message as fast as you did. You know I don't post every day, so get outside or something. Check every few days if you want. You're scaring me.

Third, there has been some discussion -- not with anyone who reads this blog -- that I seem to have "given up." I think as readers of this blog, you know that I have not given up. I've had a tough time lately, especially with the eating portion of the program. In case any of you were wondering but were afraid to say it out loud, let me reassure you: I have not thrown in the towel. I have not given up. I may be skinny and I may be out of shape and I may be tired and not as active as I used to be, but I intend to be here for quite some time. It's not going to get any easier at this point -- although it might sometime in the future if another chemo regimen actually shrinks my metastases -- and I may get sicker before I improve, but I'm not finished yet. I set a goal two years ago to make it at least to 50, and I've got almost two full years to reach that point. Once I reach that goal, I'll have to update my figure. In the meantime, I'm going to do the best I can to stand up to whatever new challenges come my way.

I know you're with me, and that gives me a lot of strength and encouragement. Don't give up hope. You never know if there is a miracle just around the corner.