Yuck.

First, I want to thank Lydia for the encouraging comment you wrote after my last post. You always know how to make me well up, girlfriend. Sending you a big hug! I'll give you a real one once we know all the sick germs from your house have been defeated. LOL

Second, thanks to Kate for "visiting" me again yesterday morning. You know how much I appreciate it.

Yesterday was the worst treatment day thus far (no fault of Kate's!). I took the same dose of the steriod as last time (4 mg) but felt nauseated within 15 minutes of the start of the infusion. I nibbled on graham crackers throughout the treatment and ate pretzels on the way home, and even stopped for lunch thinking that some food would get rid of it. Nope. Got home and went right to bed, where I watched Food Network shows (how weird it that with nausea??) and then Oprah before having some soup and a piece of toast. I also took a ginger pill, because the potential side effects of the anti-nausea medication I was prescribed scared me and I didn't know how it would react with all the Gemzar floating around in my body. That seemed to do the trick until this morning, and now despite having had a lovely bowl of Kashi cereal and another ginger pill, I'm still nauseous. Ed says my forehead seems a little warm again (it was yesterday afternoon, too) and I just feel like crap. Not an inspired word to describe how one feels, but it's accurate in this case.

Didn't I just write about feeling normal? I'm as far away from normal today as I could be. Tired, nauseous, cold, melancholy, just plain yucky. Wish I could say that I felt good and I'm looking forward to a lovely sunny Saturday, but right now I just want to curl up into a ball in bed and pull the covers over my head.

Regardless, I'm thinking of all my friends all over the country and the world, and that makes me feel a little better. Wherever you are, make the most of your day and I'll try to enjoy it vicarious through you. :)